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"I know this is what we do, this is our life. But it just seems like the world is moving so fast, right now things are changing so much."


Hey.
Head's not really in the game for the past 2 days. 
Don't know if i'm thinking too much, or i just have too much to think about. 

The boy has been busy working for the past 2 weeks, with only 1 rest day for him and a couple of half-days, which he usually heads back home to crash anyway. This whole thing started out when I entered my OJT phase, can't really blame it on him though. For myself, i have never stepped on a ship, heck, less working in one. Hence, the 2 months given was enough for me to adapt to their routines and the work load given. Coming from a person whose always working her whole life, no job in the world is too hard to handle. Even the toughest jobs out there still has to be done by someone anyway. 

I understand he has a job to be done, i really do. But i still can't stop myself from thinking this way, okay? The time spent together is getting dull as the days pass by. The sunday nights spent together don't feel the same way it used to be. The quality time together is being neglected, slowly. And look, who gives a shit right? How am i going pick things up again, because i don't want this to be another 2013 story turnout. Why do i always have visions of all the bad in the good? Why am i always looking at the worse when it comes to relationships? 

Has the past really made me what i am today..? I used to be so insensitive, and looking at me now, i'm the opposite of what i used to be. 

Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes. But it's the only thing that i know. When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes. It's the only thing that makes us feel alive.


Sigh. So much to think about. Wish i could just take another trip to where ever.